Nausea

You donned a smile that melts a fragile heart, which you've claimed yours. His way. The blessed away. The moment you donned that smile on a charming facade, another fragile heart is broken. A fragile heart that feels nausea all over again.

nau·se·a P Pronunciation Key (nôz-, -zh, -s-, -sh)
A feeling of sickness in the stomach characterized by an urge to vomit.
Strong aversion; disgust.

Aversion of disgust that should not be felt if I am His faithful being. However, I'm humbled by this experience and my gratitude to Him, the one I seek solace.

I'm still airborne

Merpati putih
by OAG
Seusia malamku menantimu
Dihembus embun aku tersipu
Mungkinkah kau lupa temujanji kita
Kau gembira bersama teman-temanmu

Berlari-lari ku mencarimu
Selembut salju musim berlalu
Mengapa berubah sekelip mata
Hatiku gundah tiada terhingga

Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Merbahaya

Syukran my dear friend for reaching the pedestal bliss, I believe you shed those tears for your own bliss and donned a prince charming charm. Where else, I'm still airborne, searching for a solace path for a smooth landing. My heart quenched today but I will embark again tomorrow. I hope to glee soon, please.