Nausea

You donned a smile that melts a fragile heart, which you've claimed yours. His way. The blessed away. The moment you donned that smile on a charming facade, another fragile heart is broken. A fragile heart that feels nausea all over again.

nau·se·a P Pronunciation Key (nôz-, -zh, -s-, -sh)
A feeling of sickness in the stomach characterized by an urge to vomit.
Strong aversion; disgust.

Aversion of disgust that should not be felt if I am His faithful being. However, I'm humbled by this experience and my gratitude to Him, the one I seek solace.