Exhausted...

Today... marks the last day of the final semester this year. I am all exhausted..physically and mentally. Need to rejuvenate. After one chore...come another...never ending. In some ways, when there are no empty spaces...life move on in a speed mode. The celebration is coming and we are leaving this sacred month. Throughout my years of fasting, I have never truly treasure this sacred month. It was just the celebration that matters to me.I will be impatiently waiting for the arrival of the celebration...to don myself...to be at my best physical state. But not this year...and not ever.

This year...i feel closer to HIM. I do. Much more deeds need to be done to be close to HIM. I have not reach that close proximity...as I am still indulging in my devilish thoughts... To HIM, I ask for help. To cleanse my heart, mind and soul.

Today...HE helped me. HE helped me to smile. Smile although my heart and my mind was storming with anxiety in accomplishing my responsibility. HE did give me a test, I think I failed the first test...and throughout the day..HE set me more tests. I did it. I accomplished it. I passed it without calamity and with patience. Thank you...for the series of challenges that you have set for me today. I am seeing my new "light"...Allhamdulillah:)