4 days to the day...

Yeshhh....4 days to the day...the new frontier. I will be leaving on the jet plane to a strange land. Down under, Adelaide. Will be awayfor about 10 months to further educate myself as a Special Educator. Although, 10 months seems short...but i believe lots of changes will be taking place in my life. The future is yet to be told. I believe being alone i will grow..i hope not horizontally...:)

The past days have been farewell after farewell. When you are leaving, then you will see the sincerity of ones friendships. I have been surrounded with warmth sincere love...by those i heart. Truly am. Thank you for the gifts. Thank you for the presences. Thank you for the kind thoughts and well wishes. I believe with the distant...the special beings here will not be forgotten but will be missed. I will terribly missed them..especially during the period i am adapting to life in a new environment with the presence of new beings.

I have been getting cold feet. As it is coming...19th February.

For the past days, been doing lots of thinking...dreaming i could say...dream dream dream...dream for better tomorrows. I hate it when i am dreaming and the past presence of this being keep coming back. I have "fiercely" tell myself that this hope has been buried. But it keep coming back. And I hate it.

Hormones changes are taking place. This facial discrepancy has kept me very worried...to HIM I ask for the healer. When facial discrepancy come "screaming" back I ask myself, " Did I disobey HIM? Did I? I think I did. I forgot HIM at times..".