Sunday, June 12, 2005

Randall...O...Randall

Remembrance: This entry was written about 2 years ago. The child in this story has graduated. About 2 years ago, he only has selected speech and now, he is an eloquent speaker. He is my sunshine.

When I see him. He makes me smile. He drowns my worries. He planted me a kiss on my cheek. He gets cosy with me and gives me a cuddly warmth hug. Those are sincere acts from an innocent child to a lady. We both have mutual liking that grows. A liking that's no need to be tried. As, it grows naturally. No materialistic wants that denies the growing likings that we have.

He is just 4. But he knows the sincerity of my undivided attention that i gave to him. He loves me. I love him to. No sweet words needed for him to woo, just his sincere act and gestures that he will never take back.

He was born in Indonesia. He is a child with mild autism. He was adopted by a chinese couple. He was only diagnosed autistic at the age of 2 years old. Adopted Parents are still in denial. Childrens' Day is coming. I hope he will come as I will don myself to have a snap shot with him.

Today, during assembly while i was looking strictly at my monyetz who were busy chatting with one another, Randall wrapped his arm around my leg. I looked down and I was smitten by his sunshine smile. I bend down and planted a kiss on his forehead. He smiled. Smile that I know comes from his heart. Mutual smile. I was not misinterpreting his smile. "You are my sunshine...My only sunshine..You makes me happy"....ooppss...i forgot the song. He is my Sunshine.

Life was at a stand still for a period. But now, my life is moving on the lighted path with the presence of those that I know will be here for me for a lifetime. They will. Insya Allah. Million muahhsss to each of u...:). I was overwhelmed with my stupidity of reciprocating and accepting unintended actions and gestures. Words that comes and goes away as easy as it comes. No one is to be blame not even the Almighty. It is HIS way of showing...let's learnt from it. Let us learnt from it and be better us. Insya Allah. When one fall down and hurt oneself. It will take awhile to heal the pain. But it will heal. It will leave a scar that will remind you of the fall. A fall that you have to learnt from. Let it be only me fall into this pit. Let it only be me. Setiap kesusahan ada kesenangan. Insya Allah.

The past, 2 years ago. Life trepidation to be remembered for its blessing, and to forget its pangs. A sahabat said that I will soon glee at this trial. I think I did.

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